True Will

This is a very deep philosophical concept brought to light from the depths of Thelema practices by Aleister Crowely (It must be noted here that there is debate as to whether or not Thelema existed prior to Crowley, though that’s another discussion, for another time).

Diary of a Drug Fiend by Aleister Crowley Click the Image to go to Amazon

This is a running theme in his writing. On a personal note, I first came across it and truly got the grasph and understanding of True Will in his fictional book, Diary of a Drug Fiend, about a couple in the 1920’s that get hooked on cocaine and heroin and are aided in being released from their addiction by a Crowley-esque figure through spiritual practices.

It is there that the True Will was very well explored, and I gained a very full understanding of it through my own personal meditations following.

The True Will is an understanding of the self in such a way that you know the soul purpose and calling in this life. When you take away everything else, it is the one thing you know that can get you through anything. For some it is Magickal Practice, for some it is an art, parenting, loving _____, physical activity, writing, meditation, building, and so on.

It is more than a passion. It is a driving Will. It will be a common thread that has pulled you along, lingered in the back of your mind if not resting quite happily on the forward of your mind. Once realized, you’ll feel silly for not have seeing it sooner. How could it have been ignored? Or perhaps, you’re one of the lucky ones that has always known it, and have been able to build your life around it.

To try to ignore the True Will is to ignore a part of the self. I personally equate it, in this evolving modern world of ours, as ignoring one’s sexuality. It keeps you caged in, keeps you separated from that which helps contribute to who you are, and as long as that barrier is up, you can never achieve completion in this life, wholeness.

A personal story: When I learned about this, I fully believed that my True Will was to practice Magick, and practice natural medicine. I had a love of plants and the nature around me, and how everything was connected. I wrote about it daily, read about it every chance I got, and was enrolled in a long distance learning program working towards my MA in Holistic Healing. Magick seemed to go hand in hand with it, and it was the only thing that made me feel centered and whole.

As time when on, my passion faded for natural medicine. I still believed in everything I had been striving towards, though the passion was just not there any more. I realized that wasn’t my True Will. I continued on with life and it wasn’t until February 2014, when I was laid off from my job, and knew I needed to do something, that I realized what I had been denying myself. Ever since I could pick up a writing utensil, I have written. Behind everything I did was the need to write. I journalled all the time, wrote about everything, wrote articles and essays no one would ever see, wrote novels and stories – and I was always at my worst when I wasn’t writing.

Writing has been my True Will. And thus, I make sure that it is the backbone of everything I do. I go to school to write, I have four blogs to write, I keep a personal journal, I write copious emails and letters – all to ensure that I am living my True Will. And while my world has crumbled around me in the past year, and I have had a very difficult year, I was never so dark and hurt within myself as I was when I wasn’t writing. Thus is my True Will.

What is your’s? What have you done to ensure you are living in alignment with your True Will?

**Jane is a student in Bellingham, Washington of Academics and a self-study pupil of magickal arts. She has spent time over a span of 15 years practicing meditation and attuning to the Universe, though her Will leads her along the path of the Written Word. You can read her other blog, Scribing English or her other articles on her Hubpages account, ThompsonPen